“Mommy you go to school?!” Why yes, yes I do. In fact, both my husband and I are currently going back to school online. We balance, or more like juggle, life all while trying to better ourselves so we can better our family. My husband works a full time job and a part time job while going to school part time and maintaining a 4.0 (or maybe higher, you’re no longer super smart if you JUST have a 4.0, isn’t that crazy?) or maybe it’s a 4.10, I don’t know but he gets straight A’s and it makes me super jealous cause I’m barely holding on to my B average, over here. Hahaha! I work a part time job, take care of the kid’s activities, keep the house somewhat tidy and food on the table, all while going to school part time, as well. Let me be the first to tell you, IT IS FREAKING HARD!!
I struggle with focusing and have what some call “Mom or Adult ADD” or what I’ve felt most of my life as just having regular ole ADD. This struggle has been with me for as long as I can remember so the thought of going back to school, last fall, scared the bejezus out of me. I was already barely keeping my head above water with my normal to do’s so the thought of throwing something else in the mix, let alone online school!!, freaked me out. This was going to take me sitting down and buckling down with my organizer and my notebook and really be accountable for myself and what I needed to get done. I had to learn how to focus on one thing at a time and not let life distract me, as it always seems to do. Anyone else have piles of laundry whining at you from upstairs or see a dust bunny in the corner and can’t sit down until you’ve swept the entire living room and kitchen? Yep, you’re not alone. 🙂
On top of the focusing problem there’s the actual “finding time to get my work done” problem. I kept telling myself, ” there is no way I’m going to be able to do my readings and do my work and write papers and take tests and pass.” I was literally trying to find a reason why I
couldn’t shouldn’t go back to school but my husband would ask me, “do you want to be working at a rec center for the rest of your life? Is this what you REALLY want to do?” Of course, the answer is no! I don’t want to work at a rec center for the rest of my life, although there are perks to my job, it’s not a career. So I sat down and thought about what I really wanted to do and I reminisced about my time as a teacher’s assistant and a smile instantly came to my face. 🙂 I want to be a teacher!!
The journey has been hard but with every class that has passed I’ve found that it gets a bit easier. Ultimately I keep telling myself that WE will have a better and more stable life as a family. No more weekends of mommy and daddy working, no more making up reasons why we can’t do extra fun things because of money being tight and no more letting life run me and us. There’s a quote I came across not too long ago that has inspired my school and life motivation even more
I am ultimately setting a huge example for my children, actually my husband and I are. We are showing our children that it is never too late to follow your dreams and goals that you have. With enough determination and drive you can accomplish anything. And that is what I want my children to take from this season of our lives. I could give up when classes get hard and I get overwhelmed but I choose to stick with it because I want to do better, I will do better, for my kids and my family.
If any of you have a goal or dream for yourself maybe this is the time to take the steps to put it into action. I hope my little story has inspired someone to go out on a limb and do something to better yourself.
All the best,